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Desert Moon Design's avatar

This explains a lot of my frustration during my spiritual awakening, as I'm a recovering stem academic 😂 but this certainly helps me understand what to do about now. Thanks!

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Golden Imp Notorious's avatar

I am so excited to try remote viewing!

All your references and this thoughtful post speak my language.

I often think about the idea from Thinking Fast and Slow, that our brains swap out really hard thinking for more emotional thinking but that we don't realize it is happening. The example in the book is about someone trying to decide if they should invest in a car company on the stock market, which overwhelms their brain. They believe they are thinking about the whole complex system to make their decision but they are really just thinking about if they "like" the car that represents the company.

I started playing with IFS and have what the IFS Sneaky Pete Players who put on shows for me in my head to gently reveal that things are not what they have seemed. Like my 'good, selfless' behavior was actually self-sacrifice so that I could stay attached to my narcissistic mother.

The best game is every time, and I mean every time if I am willing to "stay with the pain" I get the best reward in the whole universe. Which is that I see I am never, ever really against myself, I am always on my own side trying to survive through a lot of intergenerational trauma. I am never lazy, I am frozen and in pain. Somehow the Sneaky Pete Players always end up showing me who I really am. It is like they are angels that take me back in time and show me reality without that truly disorienting shame (as a cloak for pain) lens. That poor scared little girl having to create bad magic to exist in the world's unhealed pain which they call reality.

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